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l had used benzodiazepines for a short while before thanksgiving, they helped me relax and socialize with less irrational fear. l never really noticed any side effects after l was finished taking them. on thanks giving l had to get my appendix removed and the analgesics l was given (morphine/hydromorphone/oxycodone) really messed w/ my head. the whole situation lasted but 4 days, but my short term memory was a disaster shortly after wards and only recently is it getting any better.
like l said l have not used an opiate in about 9 days and a benzo in 7, until today when l needed to chill and took .5mg of lorazepam (usually if l am going to use it in a day l use at least 1-1.5 mg and kind of coast through). right now l still feel pretty normal/good, unlike how l felt after all the damned morphine.
i have done some research on the subject and found that benzos may not cause structural or organic damage, but also ones that state they might. what is your ''professional'' opinion on the subject and my affliction with using something that generally has never given me any problems. if it is relevent l am 17 years old.
like l said abstinence for a week did help me get back closer to what l was before surgery, and i'm not convinced the benzos will impede my memory as they did not before only because now l have temporary memory impairment from opiates. and how am l a druggy? did l rupture my appendix? and it is not like i'm stealling the benzos or buying them off dealers.